I just want to thank Flutter, Renee and Becky for their advice on yesterday’s post. You guys really gave me the support and advice I needed and I appreciate it. It is amazing what you can take from the points of view of three different people!
My “what ifs” have more to do with me personally, than the normal romantic “what ifs”. My romantic entanglements were what they were. All I can do is learn from them and move on and try not to make the same mistakes again. I guess my “what ifs” are about figuring out how to feel like my own person again. I am all for personal growth and evolving through your experiences, because without it, life becomes stagnant. But I think somewhere along the line that is exactly what life has become for me in a lot of ways. Don’t get me wrong; I love my husband and my kids, but I am more than a wife and mom. This isn’t about regretting what I have and wanting something different; it is about finding myself and being able to be myself with them. I have been whatever somebody else needed for so long that I think I have forgotten what makes me ME.