I expected a lot of stressful moments with this move, but not one of them had to do with self-esteem. And yet, here at the beginning of the move, that is exactly what has happened. The "packing up and sending our stuff off" part has actually been relatively stress-free, even hilarious at times with craziness […]
& The past few days have thoroughly tested me, over and over again. Not falling into old ways of thinking and old patterns has been, at times, a hell of a struggle. I had a moment the other night when it felt like everything I was trying to do for myself lately was for nothing. […]
Craziness. That is the word of the times. Moving across the country with three kids, two cats, one dog, and two cars. Leaving one college-age kid behind. Leaving family and friends behind. All of this leads to crazy emotional roller coasters. NOTE: All pics are clickable into a new window for easier viewing! My […]
That seems to be the theme of my life lately, letting go. I'm moving, so there is a lot of letting go of "stuff" going on, most of which causes me not a single moment of stress! But it also makes me think about those things that I hang on to and what they mean […]
The last few weeks have been all about change for me.. It is needed and it is time. A big part of change, in my opinion, is the journey to it. Open heart, open mind, and you can discover so much and learn so much. And I have. Some of it comes from new blogs […]
I have been thinking a lot about the questions I asked of the world in my post last night. I wanted answers, answers on where the line was. I finally realized that, no matter how much I want neat and clean answers, there aren't any. Because life isn't always neat and clean. And trying to […]
The Serenity Train derailed today, at least partially. When it crashed, it took with it trust and respect, an almost tangible loss of both. And when it crashed, it gave me anger and hurt, the kind that makes getting that train back on the tracks a true test of my desire for change. Which I […]
A little bit of chaos… We are down to 21 days and a wake up before the commencement of Operation Deister Roll Out. The movers will be here in exactly 2 weeks and will pack up our house that day and the next. Then, on the 24th, we say goodbye to most of our worldly […]
On Wednesday, I wrote a little bit about negativitiy and how I seem to be more and more aware of it, now that I am actively seeking to get away from it. But I have been noticing something else about it. It is annoying me more and more when someone is negative over seemingly ridiculous […]
I am last priority. At least, that is the way it has been for a very long time. Last priority for the people around me and eventually last priority for myself. The first thing to go in the chaos of life is me, which I am trying to change. There are a lot of reasons […]