The Serenity Train derailed today, at least partially. When it crashed, it took with it trust and respect, an almost tangible loss of both. And when it crashed, it gave me anger and hurt, the kind that makes getting that train back on the tracks a true test of my desire for change. Which I […]
A little bit of chaos… We are down to 21 days and a wake up before the commencement of Operation Deister Roll Out. The movers will be here in exactly 2 weeks and will pack up our house that day and the next. Then, on the 24th, we say goodbye to most of our worldly […]
On Wednesday, I wrote a little bit about negativitiy and how I seem to be more and more aware of it, now that I am actively seeking to get away from it. But I have been noticing something else about it. It is annoying me more and more when someone is negative over seemingly ridiculous […]
I am last priority. At least, that is the way it has been for a very long time. Last priority for the people around me and eventually last priority for myself. The first thing to go in the chaos of life is me, which I am trying to change. There are a lot of reasons […]
I took a step back since posting yesterday, trying to figure out where to start unraveling. Things are so interconnected that it can be overwhelming to find a place to start. I am a list maker. I love a "to do" list when I have a task at hand. I start with the things that […]
“You gotta know when to hold 'em, know when to fold 'em, know when to walk away, know when to run.” -From The Gambler by Kenny Rogers Yesterday, I wrote about boundaries, particularly those in friendships. As I said yesterday, this has been something that has been an issue for me for a long time. […]
Last Tuesday, I talked about the fabulous journal prompts offered by Dominee of Blessing Manifesting, Sacred Journey Through Journaling. One of the things I love about them, besides the fact that they make you think (!), is that you really don't have to do them in order. I have been doing them totally out of order, […]
It's been an enlightening week, full of ups and downs. It started out with downward spiral Monday afteroon and I spent the evening feeling completely overwhelmed and frustrated. It just seemed that, no matter how much I may try to pull myself up, there is always something right there to pull me down. But giving in […]
I discovered a new blog today, Effervescense by Kylie. Kind of ironic, considering the things I have been thinking about lately, that I discovered her blog on the day she posts about change. It's all about how you don't have to be anyone or anything other than who or what you are in order to do […]
Today has been one of those days when it would have been all too easy to give in to the blahs and ignore my blog and my goals for the day. I am thoroughly exhausted and thinking in a straight line is almost an impossible feat! But since my end goal is for positive change, […]