So it has been a very long time since I’ve written. Life took a downward turn, which I wrote about here. I suppose I had a rough time adjusting to that for a lot of reasons. I had a lot of dark days that really took a lot out of me. Grief is one of […]
I had a homework assignment this week for my Craft and Practice in Creative Writing class. It was an “observation and reflection” free-writing exercise for which we were to take 20-30 minutes in some familiar setting. For the first 10-15 minutes, we had to simply observe on our surroundings, considering the external aspects of our environment. For […]
Living and Learning I am a big believer in trying to find a silver lining or lesson in everything that happens in life. That’s my way of trying to make something good of situations and experiences that are often anything but good. Sometimes those lessons are positive; sometimes they aren’t. But there is always something to […]
I suck at letting go. I can also torture myself with the best of them. I can make connections between things that happen that will lay me out. No matter how hard I try not to, I let the asshats get to me. Add to all of that, there are the nonstop reminders of what […]
This has been one of those days when I have had moments of being inexplicably angry and unbelievably sad. I spent most of the morning trying to ignore it and it has gotten me nowhere except throbbing in pain from a stress neck ache. That’s no good. Owning it… I read a post early last […]
There is a down side to being reflective. Memories. Frustration. Sadness. The reminder of how little faith in humanity I have these days. As much as I don’t want to revisit these things, there is no way to cope and to heal without working through them. But denying it or ignoring it won’t help. I […]
I have been doing a lot of thinking lately about life and relationships, all kinds of relationships… family and friends. The last several years have had their ups and downs, often more downs than ups. I watched The Perks of Being a Wallflower recently and a quote from that really struck me. “We accept the love we think […]
For the love of 2014 I don’t believe in resolutions. They are a setup for failure. I believe in goals. And I have several… Do what I need to do to get healthier, but not be so hard on myself. I need to accept my limitations and stop expecting too much of myself. Start devoting […]
I honestly don’t want to remember most of 2013. It was a year of sadness, betrayal, frustration, and heartbreak. There were moments of happiness, but they were so few and far between. Just about a year ago, I found out that I was unexpectedly pregnant. And I was filled with fear. Abject terror. And that […]
The pain and anger of it all… I haven't written in months… I just haven't been able to. I lost my baby in May and I haven't been really all that into life in general since. Some days it is better than others, but most days, I am just angry. Angry at the world, the […]