It's been awhile since I have "wishcast" but today's prompt is a good one, and an important one. Today's Wishcasting is about expressing yourself, and just what it is that you want to express. There are a lot of things I want to express. My feelings, my soul, my creativity, my story.
But the real question is what do I really need and want to express?
♥ Me. The real me. The wild me. The authentic me. The me I used to be. Not the me that everyone else thinks I should be. Not the boxed up, socially acceptable, conformist me. ♥
That's it. That's what I wish for. It sounds like a small thing, but it isn't. Not for me. The last several days have been a bit of a spiritual journey for me. I have been doing a lot of thinking lately about just this sort of thing. What is it that stopped me from living like that? There are a lot of reasons, a lot of situations and experiences. And they all seem to have come from outside of myself. People telling me just how I am "supposed" to be. How I am "supposed" to feel, to think, to dress, to act. To not go overboard. To not stand out.
I have never been one to give a damn about what people think of me, but at some level, other people's expectations clearly molded me without my realizing it. When did I start to care how other's saw me? I have no idea, because I truly didn't think I did. But I look at the changes from Wild and Free Kim to the Kim of now and it seems to be there. Yes, I sport hot pink hair at the ripe old age of 42 and that makes me stand out on an Army base, especially when one is both a veteran and the wife of a senior NCO. But that's just hair. Being wild and free comes from the heart and soul. Why should I be afraid to let that shine through? That's just BS! And I have no room in my life for that.
So that's my wish… to express ME, the real me. The wild and free me.