Living and Learning I am a big believer in trying to find a silver lining or lesson in everything that happens in life. That’s my way of trying to make something good of situations and experiences that are often anything but good. Sometimes those lessons are positive; sometimes they aren’t. But there is always something to […]
I think that Army marriages should have some kind alternative numbering system. I wrote a status about our anniversary on Sunday, joking about how rarely we are together for it. Counting this year, we have been together for exactly one half of our anniversaries. The balance is starting to tip in our favor! I mapped […]
This weekend was pretty awful. We had to say goodbye to our beloved Steer this weekend. In January, he came down with something that no one could diagnose. Extreme weight loss and what seemed to be rather extreme dementia and personality change. In the last several days, it seemed as if his lungs had begun […]
I suck at letting go. I can also torture myself with the best of them. I can make connections between things that happen that will lay me out. No matter how hard I try not to, I let the asshats get to me. Add to all of that, there are the nonstop reminders of what […]
I feel like all I ever blog about is sadness and negativity. I hate that, but it is the reality of it sometimes. The plus side is that the balance seems to have tipped for the better. I have more good days now than bad, but those bad days, when they come, SUCK. They hit […]
This has been one of those days when I have had moments of being inexplicably angry and unbelievably sad. I spent most of the morning trying to ignore it and it has gotten me nowhere except throbbing in pain from a stress neck ache. That’s no good. Owning it… I read a post early last […]
There is a down side to being reflective. Memories. Frustration. Sadness. The reminder of how little faith in humanity I have these days. As much as I don’t want to revisit these things, there is no way to cope and to heal without working through them. But denying it or ignoring it won’t help. I […]
I have been doing a lot of thinking lately about life and relationships, all kinds of relationships… family and friends. The last several years have had their ups and downs, often more downs than ups. I watched The Perks of Being a Wallflower recently and a quote from that really struck me. “We accept the love we think […]
For the love of 2014 I don’t believe in resolutions. They are a setup for failure. I believe in goals. And I have several… Do what I need to do to get healthier, but not be so hard on myself. I need to accept my limitations and stop expecting too much of myself. Start devoting […]
I honestly don’t want to remember most of 2013. It was a year of sadness, betrayal, frustration, and heartbreak. There were moments of happiness, but they were so few and far between. Just about a year ago, I found out that I was unexpectedly pregnant. And I was filled with fear. Abject terror. And that […]