This weekend was pretty awful. We had to say goodbye to our beloved Steer this weekend. In January, he came down with something that no one could diagnose. Extreme weight loss and what seemed to be rather extreme dementia and personality change. In the last several days, it seemed as if his lungs had begun to fail and the personality changes started to occasionally spark into aggressiveness. We talked to the vet and the decision was made that it was time to let him go. That was such a horrible decision to make but it would have been selfish to keep him because of our own sadness. So Corey and took him on Saturday, wrapped in his blanket and held him as he passed. It was devastating for both of us, but it was the right thing to do for him.
Now I see him everywhere I look; we all do. I keep looking under my desk for him before I remember. I keep expecting to feel his tail on my bare feet. Today everyone is at work and school and I am alone. That makes it a lot harder to be strong because there is no one here to be strong for.
We have had a lot of loss and sadness in our lives over the last few years and it doesn’t get easier, pet or human. But I glad he went peacefully and painlessly with us holding him and petting him as he left us. I miss you, Steer!